I've always wanted to have a blog of my own, but have always been to scared to give it a whirl. There have been so many changes in my life over the past year, that this seemed like a great time to try my hand at writing. Here goes nothing.......
Over the past months, it has been my prayer that God would give me a new song to sing, a fresh start. I have been praying that He would give me a new heart, and new eyes to see my life, my circumstances, and the people all around me. It's been a hard prayer to pray, because the changes the Lord wants to make in me are hard to accept. It's not a new prayer for me to pray, because I am constantly wanting the Lord to grow me and shape me. The familiarity doesn't make the changes any easier or better.
I have been told by several people over the years that I should give myself lots of grace in hard or new situations. I believe I have been getting better at this, or else I would like to think so. I have changed jobs 3 times in the last year, moved 2 times, and gone from dating, to engaged, to married all in this past year. I am beginning to think that change and adjustment are my middle names. I've had many of hardest situations and conversations in the past year also. On the same note, I have cried more in the past year than I can ever recall. God has brought me through all of this.
I am now left with the opportunity to evaluate, start over, and rebuild. This is when I am asking the Lord to put a new song in my mouth. I am asking Him to give me a vision and purpose for what my life is to be about. I keep praying that I would be a blank canvas for Him to use for whatever he has for me. I want to be clay in His hands, but there always days when I don't want to go to the hard places where change takes place. I have to choose everyday that I will keep pressing on towards what the Lord has for me!
